Training schedule says I will do: 6 miles
I actually did: 6.12 miles*
*7.12 miles using Aubree's Bonus Mileage System, getting 1/4 extra mile per 1/2 mile traveled up hill and 1/2 extra mile for temperature less than 20. Technically it was 27, but "felt like" 18. I checked with Aubree who said that counts. (This run felt really hard, so I wanted as many bonus miles as I could get!)
Days to go until the marathon: 180
Miles to go until 1000: 942.62
On today's run, I thought a lot about mom guilt and actually questioned whether I should really be training for a marathon. There is no question that I am a happier person when I run, and that I run on a more regular basis, at least right now when I'm not getting uninterrupted sleep at night ever, when I have a training schedule to follow. So in that regard, I think that my running benefits my family. But on the other hand, for the forseeable future, I will be away from home for at least an hour every Sunday morning. Which may not be a huge deal, except that I am already away from home for 10 or so hours Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and 5+ hours on Tuesday. I am really lucky that my husband stays home with my son so at least I know he is under the care of someone who loves him as much as I do. And I know that it is because I work that 1) my husband is able to stay home, and 2) we are able to eat, so I shouldn't feel guilty about going to work every day, but I do. And then I add Sunday mornings away from home on top of it? Today in particular, I ran while my husband fed my son breakfast, which usually I do on the weekends. I don't think I should stop running (in addition to making me happier, I'm hoping it will inspire my son to be active -- although I don't know if there are many races for the <1 year old set), so I guess I'm hoping maybe I can stop feeling guilty about it . . .
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